A Beginner’s Journey into Sensual Surrender

“First time? You’re in good hands, don’t worry.”

Once you have mustered up the courage, which has been encouraged by the curiosity that has been burning inside of you for so long, you find yourself re-reading my adverts again for the 10th or maybe 20th time, and you find yourself writing me an email. You are captivated by the way I describe myself and my favourite way to play. The idea of giving up control of your body, your orgasm, and being teased relentlessly, brings you a thrill like nothing you’ve known before.

Unsure where to begin, you tell me a little bit about yourself, and your interests. Maybe you are shy and nervous about being judged for your lack of experience (spoiler: you will not be judged) and you make it seem like you’ve done this before. Or perhaps, you’re more bold, you own your kinky naivety, and bare all.

You’ve long been inspired by dominant women in movies, a mean woman who took your breath away with her bold assertiveness. You’ve often found yourself looking up Femdom porn, or perhaps just scrolling through the social media pages of those who you found most captivating.

You press ‘send’ on that email. And for a moment your heart races, a thrill of excitement and anticipation flooding your body. You let out a sigh of relief. It is done. You have taken the first step to becoming my submissive, my toy, my play thing. You wait, maybe minutes, maybe until the next morning, to hear back from me. Checking your phone while you are at work to see if you have any new and illicit emails.

I get your message. I enjoy the background information you have indulged me with, a little insight into your interests, perversions and curiosities. I am excited to meet you and to take your hand on this journey of self discovery in the BDSM world. So we write back and forth to each other, I find out a little bit more, but you are still something of a mystery to me until we meet in person. We agree upon a date to meet, and you make your plans. What to wear to impress me? Googling ‘how to treat your Mistress.’ Perhaps, if you really want to get into my good books, buying me a small gift of your appreciation to bring with you.

Then the day arrives. It feels a bit like a dream, and now you’re more nervous than ever. But also excited. But also nervous. But also excited – The feelings are mixed up and fighting for your attention, putting you into a state of jittery, horny anticipation. When you knock on the door of the studio, your doubts about making the right choice evaporate as I greet you with a welcoming smile and lead you down a corridor to a warm, candlelit room. Your eyes try to take in all of this strange looking furniture and interesting looking toys and tools placed around the room at strategic points, whilst you follow the first instruction from me to sit down.

We talk. It’s friendly and comfortable, I want you to be able to open up to me about any desires you may have not thought about telling me, as well as listen to any worries, boundaries, or questions you may have.

Then the fun begins. I take my time to get you into the headspace that is both relaxing and exhilarating. You’re a beginner, but also a new person to me, so as much as you will be seeing what new things you enjoy, I will be getting to know you, learning how you move, how you react. Are you going to make noise for me? Or are you quiet and I have to pay more attention to the subtle shifts of your body and facial expressions, noticing when you’re getting more turned on and enjoying yourself?

We don’t rush. This is an art that is best savored mindfully. Feel every breath of mine on your cheek, gasp at the shock of my nails running down your back. Experience my presence without your skill of sight, as I blindfold you and enjoy knowing that you cannot know what is coming next.

I indulge in giving you new experiences, pleasures and sensations. Taking a toy or tool and being the first to introduce you to it. You might not like it all, but I am not here to force you into something you don’t want to do. Perhaps somewhere down the line if it’s something you wish to indulge in, but not today. Today I am here to please and tease. To figure out where your edge is and have you ride it as long as you can. To see you wriggle, hear you gasp, and that thing that gives me the ultimate pleasure – getting you to the point where you are begging me to let you cum. You’ve seen enough now to know that wicked smile on my face might mean you’re in trouble. Will I let you cum just yet? Or do I think you should be denied a little longer?

Let’s find out.

If this story inspired you in some way, then I encourage you to take that first step. Beginners or experienced submissive are always welcomed to reach out for creating a scene and allowing me to give you a sensational encounter that will leave you longing for the next one…

Lady Lila