I work as a dominatrix and bizarre lady. This means that I offer dominant/active/sadistic (erotic) services in my sessions and earn my living this way.
But I am also a person with my own individual combination of sexual fantasies and preferences. I enjoy the services I offer, they turn me on, and some of them are also part of the bouquet of things I do in my private life and are part of my personal sexuality.
On the other hand, there are also many things that I enjoy in my private life but do not offer in my sessions. I am a switch, I also have a masochistic, submissive, bratty side, I love to surrender, to obey, to be used. There are sessions where I would love to take the place of my guests 100 percent. (Although the idea of being dominated by myself is a little creepy, but now I'm digressing...)
Since I started working as a pro domme, I have been indulging my masochism much less frequently. Especially in the beginning, I often wondered whether my guests would take me less seriously if I had blue welts on my butt. So I planned my private sessions so that the marks would have enough time to heal before I could once again be the lustful bizarre lady in beautiful lingerie who ties you to the cross and... does whatever she wants with you. This text is not about your preferences, but mine!
By now, I have come to the conclusion that my private bruises can be seen in my professional sessions. They are part of me, they often even make me proud, and honestly, they are proof that I know firsthand how my own play styles feel and that I even know how to enjoy it. Many of my guests give me feedback that they feel understood by me on a deep emotional level. I suspect there is a connection.
And if you want to be my guest and enjoy switching yourself, then you may well find it a shame that the scope of possible game dynamics in the sessions with me seems to be “artificially” limited. Think of something you really enjoy doing and that is very close to your heart. Now imagine doing it every week for work. Sounds wonderful—for a while. And then at some point it starts to feel like a chore and loses its appeal, right? Please allow me to protect parts of my sexuality from ever feeling like a chore.
So far, I have only discussed the difference between private and professional sessions. The matter becomes more complex when content is added to the equation. This is a world in which I engage in real-life activities with people, which others then view on their screens. A level where I have much more creative freedom together with other creators than in sessions with guests, where their fantasies, preferences, and limits are at the forefront. I've noticed that completely different rules and boundaries apply here for me in terms of who I feel comfortable with and what I feel comfortable with in front of the camera (and thus potentially on your screens at home).
And with all that said, boundaries are not static. The reasons for this can be many and varied, and ultimately they are not that important. Yes means yes, no means no. Not right now means you can ask when something might be offered again. And what is always available to us is porn and the fantasies in our heads...